Morning walk by moonlight------- a bit scary!!

I've been taking my morning walk alone this past week or so.

Still very dark, still energising, and still profoundly atmospheric,

---but with a difference. No company on these occasions,

and a sudden awareness that

I have FEAR.

The setting is still awe- inspiring,

but now with overtones of a silence that

magnifies the imagination.---Mine anyway.

It was rather windy yesterday

and as I passed the deserted quay-side

the sea hit the rocks, interrupting the stillness.

No-one in sight. the houses still asleep, shrouded in mystery.

 A heightened rustling of palms still majestic

by moonlight.

the old covered boats seem a little sinister,

the old deserted garden, not as picturesque

as usual.

I walk uphill, hitting a darker patch,

 quickening  my pace;

moving shadows,a cat leaps out,a thudding sound behind me

-----just my heart- beat!

I reach home----relief surging through me.

The cockerel is crowing, dawn is round the corner,

----I'm safe!

Maybe I've exaggerated a little

but there is basis truth here. I'm

facing FEAR.

Never an easy experience, but I'm convinced that

 it is one of value. A strengthening one, perhaps

an enlightening one, a time when

 one can know oneself a little better,

a time to trust.

Mo.

'Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile

initially scared me to death.'

Betty Bender.

'You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than you.'

Mary Manin Morrissey.